Seven
At a young age,
I learned of absence.
The absence of
security, protection.
The absence of
warmth, connection.
In the frigid air of February,
I felt the warmth leave me.
Like an alien in my own home,
I searched,
and I searched
and I searched.
Yet every face that returned my gaze
was not the face I was searching for.
In the desolate grasp of February,
security was stolen from me.
I continued to search,
panic rising,
and rising
and rising.
Until I met a face that beckoned me, terrified me:
the face of truth.
And in the suffocating web of February,
I struggled for a connection.
It was as if I was born again
at the age of seven,
crushed by only seven words.
I had been ripped prematurely of my cocoon,
a monarch butterfly with torn wings,
forced to face the world with raw eyes.
“She got sick,
and didn’t make it.”
In the frigid air of February,
I felt the warmth abandon me.
I searched,
and I searched,
and I searched,
for any truth that was not mine.
At a young age,
I learned of absence.
The absence of
security, protection.
The absence of
warmth, connection.
The absence of
my mother.